1. I hate my jobs, yes both of them..i don't hate the people i just hate the fact im a fucking lacky yes that is indeed what i am a lacky. I do the work others don't want to do. I don't hate anyone no thats not the case no no no.....i just hate my job simple as that when i run away to chicago i'll be happy for five minutes im sure.
2. My fucking car got smashed on saturday and only a select few people gave a flying fuck about how i was, theres this guy i kind of liked a while back...yeah long ago, he was cool and all but he didn't call to check up on me so he can blow me hard. Not like i was going to die but i was upset i like to be comforted when im upset is that too much to ask, for those of you who did i appreciated it greatly and i love you all the more for you loving me.
3. BEING USED!! does anyone else in this great big fat fuck fest of a world think that being used should be one of the worst sins!!!!!!!!! I have found recently that i have been used without knowing it, or mislead can that be the same thing...screw it, it is to me.
4. I wanted to move out thats shot to hell its no ones fault just mind inability to decide if i wanted to take the trip to chicago or not...i decide i'll give it one good go and if i fail i tried atleast. i'll miss michigan for five minute since thats my attention span.
5. I have never felt more unattractive in my life, like today everyone had someone and i can't find one god damn person to even play around with, granted if i really wanted to i could put myself in a low cut top let my hair down and achieve my goal. but that is the retard way to fix the problem, i hate when people pull this shit ready here it is "you're so beautiful, your such a hottie, i'll call you next week WE'LL DO SOMETHING" please blow me i know what you're saying, i got what i want out of you know im slowly fading you out of my life. People think im dumb because im oblivious to certain things, or so you think. god i hate people who do that to me rawr ladies and gentlemen rawr.
6. MY LYING FRIENDS yes my friends can sometimes be lying sacks of shit granted i've had my share of white lies but not a tangled web of deciet granted sometimes they don't know they're doing it but still tangled web of lies and deciet. Im directing this at like two people.
VALENTINES DAY IS THE WORST STINKING HALLMARK HOLIDAY EVER I SWEAR IT HAS BEEN BUGGING ME FOR DAYS what better day to remind you that no one fucking loves you.
Im going to bed i have to sulk i promise i'll be better by tomorrow if not i give all of you who still read this journal permission to put me out of my damn misery...nite